Quick update

Yesterday, Friday, I started the shots and loading. Actually I'm doing the under the tongue but I'll just say shots. I'm trying 200 strenght and I take 1/2 in the morning and 1/2 at night. I haven't really thought about what I'm eating just trying to eat lots of fats. I must be succeeding because I'm at 192.4 today that's a 3.4 pound gain. I really hate this part. It goes against everything you are trying to do, and that's lose weight! I haven't been getting the best results so I really hate it. I'm praying I will get these 20 pound a month losses. I am going to really watch everything that I eat the next 23 days and see if I can't manage to find what works best for me. Maybe I need to eat just chicken or fish or maybe steak works best for me. Oh well I'm going to try not to worry about it today and enjoy the freedom to eat whatever I want! Have a great Saturday!

May 29th

Hello again! Well I wrote yesterday and there seems to be a problem getting it to publish. I hope this one goes through.
I am again at 189.0 not 189.1 or .2 just 189. I'm beginning to think my scale is broke. It doesn't seem to matter if I try to eat less or eat a lot I stay the same. I'm about to start back on the VLCD part again. I hope that it will change then, for now it's fine that I'm steady.
Today we bought a new car. My daughter is so excited to have it. She really didn't think that I would get it because I was taking so long. She isn't good at waiting and looking for the best deals. She is a very good kid. There are a lot of kids I would not have done this for, but she is very responsible. I know she will pay me and keep a job if at all possible. She was really sweet today and bought lunch for all of us, me, her sister and herself, at a nicer restaurant. I was planning on paying but when I went to the restroom and came back she had paid the bill and the tip!
I'll keep ya'll updated on my load days and the restarting of the diet as soon as possible.
Good night and a pleasant tomorrow!

May 28th

Hi everyone! Hope all is well with everyone. I'm doing great no big changes to report. I said I was going to start exercising, but... I always find an excuse not to. I don't have time is one excuse I use. I run around in the mornings because my daughter uses the car at night to go to work. I've been looking at vehicles and working on getting a loan. She will be paying for the loan but she is only 17 so I am ultimately the one responsible. She is a great, hard-working kid but you never know what will happen. She just made manager where she works, but she still doesn't make a lot. It's a pizza joint so she never would make big bucks, but it is good money. Well that means I have all evening to work out. I use I'm tired as an excuse or my shows on! I would even rather do laundry or the dishes instead of work out.
Next week is may doctor week. I have two appointments and each daughter has an appointment. I also have a wedding to attend and work in on Saturday June 7th. With June just around the corner I'm starting to feel the need to get back on the diet, so I can get in a couple of rounds before I have to start school again. I wish I worked in the days of 3 months off instead of two. I bet that it would go just as quickly! I can't believe how time goes so fast when you do so little. I have been reading a lot! I love to read but it's harder during the school year. I've already read 3 books. To bad I don't love running like I love reading.
Well that's it for now. Good day to everyone!

Just another day.

Well I am stuck at 189, but it's really a good thing. I did go up to 189.4 yesterday but am back at 189 this morning. I have been very bad on the phase 3 part. I am trying to wrap my mind around the protocol again so I can get back on track. I say it's a good thing because I have stayed steady and I have eaten all kinds of stuff. Since I have been having to take my daughter to work and it is so far away, I have been staying in town. My other child that has Down's and is diabetic has to have regular meals, so we go out and I have been eating too. Now that I'm out of school I won't have to take her in to work and life will get back in a schedule. I plan on starting an exercise program and getting back to eating low carb. I think I will start on the VLCD about June 8th. My very good friend is getting married on the 7th and we will have some eating no-no's that day. I plan on turning them into yes's by making that a load day.
On go to the doctor on the 2nd of June and I am almost looking forward to it. I haven't been in a year. I know I've lost but I will get to see just how much in a official way. She has been telling me to lose weight for a while. I even tried the fat blocking pill. That didn't do it for me and it had some nasty side effects. She will probable ask how I did it and I'm not sure I want to tell her. I don't know her that well. She might really fuss about it or she might be interested in it. I just don't know so I think I will just go with low cal diet. Not a lie, just not the whole truth.
Well that's all for now. Keep on keeping on!

Stuck!

I'm still at 189. I was going to do a steak day but I over slept and went to work without anything to eat. Soo of course I didn't eat like I should have. The next day, today, I woke up 1 and 1/2 hours sooner than I needed to. I can't wait to get out of school. Tomorrow is the last day! YEA! I am certain I will do much better once I am off for the summer.

Yikes!!

I knew I should have kept my mouth shut! I was going along so great then this morning almost 3 pounds!! I'm at 189. I will do a steak day tomorrow and I hope it goes away as fast as it came on! Bye for now!

Long time no write!

Hey everyone! Boy it's been a while! I have had a very tough and eventful week! This last week was our kindergarten graduation end of the year party at school. That was stressful enough but we got huge amounts of rain and we flooded and they shut our school. The night before my daughter was at work and got in the flooding rain. Her car got into the high waters and went dead. It's a 14 year old car and it didn't need much to cause a lot of problems. I had to go get her late at night. I was also getting ready for company and her graduation party and graduation this weekend. I have had to take her to work and back and look for a new car because the amount they want to fix the old one is almost more than it is worth. I know that it might not be a real big deal to take some one to work but we live 45 minutes from her work. I have been spending 3 hours a day just getting her to and from work. I have to work and of course do all the regular chores. Then tyring to get her party planned the house ready for guest and then getting her to the rehearsal and pictures for graduation. I was feeling so overwhelmed! Well enough of that!
As far as the diet is going, I am at a stand still. I haven't gained or lost but a few oz. I have stopped taking the shots and am on the protein stage. I'm really surprised I didn't gain this weekend. We ate out a lot and I wasn't always so good. This is my last week of school and I have a lot to do to get my room cleaned up and ready for next year. I often eat under stress and with the car problems I am wanting to eat sweets. I have been staying strong so far. I am not sure how long I will stay on the high protein part yet. I want to wait until I'm out of school and I need to get all my yearly doctor visits. Soooo I might stay on this part for a few weeks then get back into the low cal. part.
I'll write more now that everything has settled down a little. Hope everyone is doing great I've missed reading all the blogs. I feel very out of it!

Day 16 VLCD

Hey everyone! Well I have been so busy with school and personal life I feel like I will never get through the next 2 weeks. I happy to say the weight is still coming off. I don't know if it is fast or not but off is off! I lost 2.2 pounds since Friday. I'm down to 186.2 now. That makes 9 pounds gone but the bad thing is that I gained almost 6 pounds on the load. I'm thinking I don't want to do that again. I only have a little while longer on this part. I don't know!!:( Oh well till later! Have a great day!

Day 12 VLCD

When I last wrote I was awaiting a big weight gain because I cheated BIG time! I am still waiting! It has been very odd. The morning after the big "C" I reluctantly got on the scale. Boy was I surprised to see a .4 pound loss!! I figured the next day I would see the big gain. I did gain but only .6 of a pound then the following day, today, I again lost .4 of a pound. All I can say is maybe I was about to lose really big so I cheated myself out of that victory. I am at 188.4 as of this morning and am glad it is the weekend. I usually do alot better on the weekends because I don't have all the eating distractions and lack of sleep! Glad to see many of you losing so well! Keep up the good work. And those of you struggling, Never give up and always keep hope! Bye for now!

Day 9 VLC

Well, I haven't written in a while. I'm so busy right now I feel very stressed!! I got 3rd place in our weigh in at work which should make me happy. Our whole school lost 94pounds together, which is great! I am just discussed by the people that can do almost nothing and lose the weight. I know this is just how life is and it isn't fair but I don't care! It makes me mad!! I have been having a difficult time losing this weekend. Friday when we were to weigh in I gained .2 pounds then I stayed the same and then Sunday another .4 of a pound! Monday came and no change then this morning I went down .2.
Well, I have been feeling down and PMSies. I blew my diet today big time!! I ate all kinds of junk. I had an internal conversation going on that went something like this: You are going to mess up all the work you have done losing the weight so far! The bad side said I DON'T CARE!! I'll just deal with it later! Then the other side said You are so stupid! What is the matter with you! Why can't you just walk away from this food???

Oh well, I will pay for this but I will just keep working at it! A psychologist would have a field day with my mind! Hope the rest of you are doing great and not having food issues.

Another day another pound:)

Well actually it was 1.6 pounds!! That's 4.4 pounds in 3 days. I'm so excited about that. I really feel like I'm on track this time and will continue to lose. I can't wait for tomorrow to get on the scale! Tomorrow we have our weigh in at work. We have been on a month long challenge. I know I am mot the "biggest" loser but I am happy with the way I lose it. One lady lost 15 pounds and is about my size, but you can hardly tell it. I see a big difference in me. I'll post a pic. soon so you all can be the judge yourselves. Bye for now, Cheryl