Day 9 VLC

Well, I haven't written in a while. I'm so busy right now I feel very stressed!! I got 3rd place in our weigh in at work which should make me happy. Our whole school lost 94pounds together, which is great! I am just discussed by the people that can do almost nothing and lose the weight. I know this is just how life is and it isn't fair but I don't care! It makes me mad!! I have been having a difficult time losing this weekend. Friday when we were to weigh in I gained .2 pounds then I stayed the same and then Sunday another .4 of a pound! Monday came and no change then this morning I went down .2.
Well, I have been feeling down and PMSies. I blew my diet today big time!! I ate all kinds of junk. I had an internal conversation going on that went something like this: You are going to mess up all the work you have done losing the weight so far! The bad side said I DON'T CARE!! I'll just deal with it later! Then the other side said You are so stupid! What is the matter with you! Why can't you just walk away from this food???

Oh well, I will pay for this but I will just keep working at it! A psychologist would have a field day with my mind! Hope the rest of you are doing great and not having food issues.